The time has come to incubate the future. I will be taking a break from posting for a time. See you on the other side.
I have worked so hard to gain what I have and it is my oath to make others go through the work when it comes to the core of the teachings I have recieved in the fullness of the line with the root. I can't share everything so easily as others try to do on social sites, I realize. I can only share what the powers allow me to share as it flows through me and then I get tongue-tied when the words must stop. I can't just admin a discussion group anymore, because often, there is no room for disscussion. I can answer questions given (as I do on paganspace) and I can post messages that I am told to share on my blog. Oaths to the powers grow strong at this point and they are so fullfilling as they are kept. I keep them.
I know many around who hate Luxas and things he does. I have had issue with him in the past myself, thinking those with low self esteem would get taken advantage of. Maybe that's happened before, but in that, those women learned not to get taken advantage of again, so there was a lesson even in that. Others would never begin with him, so its not for them. They didn't want it enough. But, for the ones who it is for, I don't mind. It weeds out the worthy to recieve.
I, myself, have had my issues with Luxas as a part of my learning process. Now, I look back and embrace what I have learned, knowing that as I did it, that I looked deeper within myself and unleashed things that I had an inkling existed, but never saw. He saw them and helped to bring them out of me with the intensity of my anger, frustration, lust, and drive to reach the stars. I now consider him my best guide ( I remember when Lady U. said that too now:). I announce that I don't hate him anymore. I know that in the past some witches were trying to back me up by trying to pull me away and I wasn't vocal enough to say any of this way back then because of my anger. Now I am.
Diavanii Aryia Regina, Full Witch, Root of the Circle Witches
I like to use the older spelling myself, although I can read it either way.
I'll tell you why:
I've made it my business to work with the older forms of words, images and symbols when I have them. These type of thoughts fueled my pre and early modern literature schooling. I don't see stage magicians as magicians, only that they are trying to connect with the image of the ancient magi tradition in dress, words and forms of movement. Although they may look alike, they aren't really, because stage magicians don't succeed in tapping the realm of magic itself. I highly doubt that many of them actually believe in the possibility of magic in the first place, but they do have what it takes to entertain in the way of their chosen profession. This is why I don't allow them to take over the word magic for me. I say what they do isn't magic.
There are no doors, only the ones we put up in between ourselves and what is out there.
Look at doors to acknowledge them.
Stretch out your hand and
grasp the hand of one offering from the other side of the door.
Now walk on through.
What is it you are to be?
See it mirrored in another and extend your hand.
When energies run high (as they do when more and more power envelops you and those you work with), I find they can go in a few ways. Anger is often one that the energies end up showing themselves in as it works to break through the layers of conditioning walls we have developed as a part of our overall cultures and upbringing. As long as it teaches on the way, I've learned to accept that anger is a natural process in the magic. Don't create it on purpose, but it can be harvested from yourself and others when it shows its head to fulfill charging. Just make sure to look underneath the words spoken to see the patterns at hand and to avoid letting the anger linger in hurt feelings and frustrations. Let it all go.